Rain and Other Fairytales

The other day, I was told that I needed a reality check. Not in a rude or ugly way, but rather, in a caring way. I was told that I needed to see the ugliness in life sooner, rather than later. It is one of those things where "The higher you fly, the farther you fall." My friends did not want me to fall so far, but rather walk the rope with caution.

You know, I have seen the ugly in life. It's there. I know it is there. I know people can be real jerks sometimes. I know that the people you love most can hurt you the worst because they have been given access to a part of you that you have given to no one else.

But, why would I walk through such a beautiful life expecting only the worst of people? Because it hurts less? Because if you expect disappointment, it is a pleasant surprise when something goes right?

I am afraid of hurting, so it is so tempting to live this way. I am afraid of change. I am afraid of things going the wrong way. But I think beyond all of these other fears, I am afraid of fear controlling the way I live. I am willing to hurt if it means I am alive. All or nothing, right?

I know my life isn't a movie. I am not a princess. But, I will always try to see my life like a movie, because I know my life means something. I know I will have a happy ending, despite every hardship that I face. And although I am not a princess, I will always walk with the dignity and posture of a princess.  I believe in happily ever afters and pinch-me-I-am- dreaming moments. I believe in destiny and I believe in love. I believe in love at first sight and forever. Why shouldn't I? Sure, bad things happen all the time, but can you really appreciate the good without the bad?

Rain is a blessing. Without the rain, the earth would be brown and bare. The flowers wouldn't grow. The soil wouldn't be nutritious. Our lakes, rivers, and oceans would dry up and we would be without a water supply. Rain is a good things. You just have to get past the thunder and lightening to appreciate the beauty that follows the storm.

Vanity Post (Part 2)

So, this is a continuation of my vanity post from the beginning of the week :)

31. I HATE the sounds people make when they eat. Ie: Crunching chips or ice, smacking, slurping, etc. It drives me absolutely batty.

32. I love Jennifer Lawrence :)

33. I love the colors lime green and purple, but I love wearing white.

34. My best ideas come when I am driving and when I am showering. I try to do both as often as possible!

35. I love to work. It keeps me busy and it makes me feel like I am making my own.

36. I love smelling good, and I love people who smell good :))

37. I always smell like strawberries and pomegranates :)

38. Feet give me the heeby jeebies.

39. I am a sucker for people who speak spanish.

40. I want a tattoo, but I am terrified of making a decision so permanent.

41. I want a german shephard <3 :D

42. My favorite flower is the Oriental Lily. Its scientific name is the lilium orientalis, and it is also known as the stargazer lily <3

43. I love to play Apples to apples :D

44. I have this dream roomin my head... It involves a cherry mahogony room with a chandelier and a black grand piano :)

45. I cant wait to live on my own, because my apartment will be so cute :)

46. I have the BIGGEST crush on Marcus Butler, the british youtuber! He is gorgeous AND funny :) And he has a lovely accent.

47. My favorite pizza is a stuffed crust with hamburger, sausage, pepperoni, peppers, onions, olives, mushrooms, tomatos, and pineapple. I know it sounds gross... but I love it...

48. X and Y are my favorite letters.

49. I have a plant named Sheldon :D He is named after my favorite character on the Big Bang theory. i have had him for 3 years.

50. I love using natural lighting.

Vanity Post (Part 1)

So, I have decided to write a vanity post. We all get that luxury, right? So, I have decided to write down 77 things that you may or may not know about me, but probably need to know if you want me to like you.

1. 7 is my favorite number. However, if I only wrote 7 things about myself, it would be a very short post. Therefore, what is better than one 7? 2 7's. What is better than 3 7's? I think you know the answer to that.

2. I am an English major at the University of Texas at Austin.

3. I love the school I go to. I love the city it is in. Austin is full of amazing people, opportunities, and things to do. If you are a city person, it is great. If you are a nature person, it is still the place for you.

4. I HATE living in Austin. I would love to live near Austin, but living in Austin is too much for me. When I came back to school two days ago, the first thing I heard when I stepped out of the car was the sound of an ambulance. It is so chaotic.

5. I want to live somewhere where I can see the stars.

6. I drink WAY too much coffee.

7. My favorite food is tater tot casserole. I made it for my family so many times in one month that my mother and brother no longer fancy the dish :)

8. I am a creator. I love to write, draw, cook, play music.

9. I LOVE reading. Fiction is my favorite.

10. I am a little obsessed with movies. I love sitting in a perfectly dark room in a comfy chair with a bottle of water and some reeses pieces while I enjoy that movie. 

11. I am such a ridiculous Disney fan, that I get goosebumps and teary eyed every time I see the castle at the beginning of a film.

12. I cried 3 times when I saw Frozen. (One of the best movies ever!!!!)

13. I cry every time Mufasa dies.

14. I cry through all of Les Miserables every time I watch that movie. I hate it.

15. I enjoy my fair share of One Direction. They are talented singers, and everyone who thinks otherwise can keep their opinions to theirselves :D

16. I am so tired right now. I am normally tired...

17. I am saving myself for marriage. I know sex is the new shimmy, but I only want to experience that special feeling with one person.

18. That being said, I have also never REALLY kissed anyone. I have been pecked on the lips, but have never had that real kiss. I am kid of stubborn about it. I always wanted it to be like that silly firework feeling you see in all of those movies.

19. My favorite colors are green and purple.

20. I don't drink soda.

21. I love McDonald's sweet tea.

22. I love French Fries. Of every kind. I love to dip them in gravy, ketchup, vanilla ice cream...

23. I also love gravy.

24. And stuffed crust supreme pizza with pineapple...

25. I should go on strange addictions.

26. I listen to music and watch movies on repeat!

27. My roommates and I are apartment hunting right now. I am so excited because I will have my own room! But the best part? I WILL HAVE A BOOKSHELF IN MY ROOM!!!!!

28. I believe it is all about the little things.

29. I am a very positive person for other people.

30. I can be a little pessimistic when it comes to things dealing with myself.

So, this is the first 30 of the list! If you have any questions or comments, shoot me a message! The next 47 will come in spurts over the next few days!